Some How Surviving High School

I'm a Cheerleader. You might think that being a cheerleader makes my life easy and empty of drama. You couldn't be anymore wrong!

Thursday, November 17, 2005

Start Of Something Great

So I've decided that I"m going to start a journal. I've wanted to for awhile and I think that it would be a good way to get things out that I don't want to tell anyone. So Kyle is really annoying, he can't understand that I don't want to go out with him or have anything to do with him. Like he text me today during chem saying "So, What's up?" like everything was okay. Guys are sooo thick headed!!! They don't understand that girls want to be seen with you and to have people know your going out by how you act around them, not just telling them. Girls want to have someone there to cuddle with when they need someone there, to hae someone remember their birthday and make a big deal out of it, make the girl feel like she's the most important person in the world.
I know that they say that if you feel the need to have a boyfriend that you're supposed to look at your relationship with Christ. Granted God has someone out there who will give me waht I want and need to make me happy. But Lord knows how completely impatient I am. It's just so hard seeing people like Sabina and Tim together makes me so jealous!
Another thing that's annoying me is that I've applied at Sears, Shorko, and Scraps (wow all S's) and I haven't heard anything!!! I hate asking mom and dad for $money$, I just want to be able to not not (yes I ment that) do something because I have to ask my parents for $money$.
Enough about the vague things. Today I went to UNR with Erin for 2 (well 1 1/2) of her classes, really random but it was fun. Their are a lot of good-looking guys in college. College is so laid back but I'm debating if that's a good thing or a bad thing
Good Reasons:
~Not so much drama
~People are less judgemental
~Less classes a day = not hw in every class everyday

Bad Reasons:
~I'm a hands on kind of person who likes class discussions and would probably go crazy w/o being able to voice my opinion
~Not someone there to make sure you do things that need to be done and on time

Anyways, after class we went to Matt's house and cleaned and ordered pizza. But you see, when Erin and I got there Shane was leaving so I thought everything was cool. You see, Shane is someone who Erin brought for me on our double-dated-camping-trip @ Boca. Let's just say that it was cold and we slept in the back of my Jeep and then the morning was awakwardly filled with me wanting their to be some kind of a realtionship and him saying some stupid line about him not wanting a relationship. He said that if something is supposed to happen we'll cross paths again. The point is that Matt went to go get the pizza and he came back with Pizza and SHANE! I tried to act like I didn't care and even got him an iced tea. I pretty much ignored him the rest of the time I was there. But who knows? What I do know is that I'm going to play it cool when we are both there.

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